I live and think in metaphors. This blog is about a personal transformation that took place over a period of years— where I shed the layers of my professional identity and in the process discovered (or rediscovered) myself.
I’m realizing this is an ongoing process. I continue to strip away old beliefs and habits that try to hold me back. Lately, I’ve become increasingly tired. Not the fatigue that comes from lack of sleep… a caffeine fix and a nap usually remedies that. It’s a sluggishness that comes over me when I’m out of sync with myself.
How did this happen?
I have so many things I want to write about… and I’m not writing it. I’m holding it all in my head. Concerned the topics don’t fit the blog or won’t be of interest to my readers.
I’ve wanted to post more frequently, get into a rhythm, really stretch myself and explore my writing voice, but I know a lot of you subscribe to this blog via email and I’ve been concerned about cluttering your inbox. That you will see another post come in and say, “Her again?”
I become overly consumed with perception and then I lose my voice… it’s a pattern that circles back around every now and then. Thankfully, I’ve matured to a point that I can recognize when it’s happening and regroup.
What about you? Do you ever struggle with “keeping it real?” How does it feel when you give yourself permission to be yourself?
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I think you should write about what you feel moved to write about, whether or not it fits some “theme” you think your blog needs to follow. When I first got interested in blogging, it was because blogs told whole stories – they might have had a slant, but I got to know the bloggers I followed. Now the niche thing has taken hold and while it has its place, I don’t think it’s always what works best.
I hold back on my blog more now than I would have at one point, but only for fear of “real life” people reading certain things. Like that I’m putting myself in therapy. I don’t know why it’s easier to share online, but it is!
And I like seeing new posts from my favorite blogs regularly, so post away!
Allowing ourselves to be is the most liberating experience we can have in life. Being true to ourselves reveals our own uniqueness, and if allow our uniqueness to be expressed, we will merit the attention of many people.
As my daughters tell me when I struggle with doubt, or an insecurity, “Own it, Mom!” And that’s my advice to you. Don’t deny your self, but write away, own your decision, and people will admire your own unique way of letting your real self “shine!”
You can “clutter” my inbox every day, twenty times a day, and I’ll still be a faithful reader — no matter what the subject matter is.
I look forward to your emails and miss them when I don’t see one in my inbox. Let it out girl!!! =)
I agree with the others. Write away. If I’m having a busy day I just open the emails and read them later.
I feel like I’ve been going through this “phase” myself for almost 2 years now! I initially thought it was due to work stress, things I couldn’t or wouldn’t talk about, the ease of Twitter for quick updates, etc. Then it was “keeping up appearances” for most of 2009 – I didn’t want to let all of the negativity loose on my blog and also wanted to make sure the perception I worked so hard to put out there wasn’t broken. I promised myself I’d be more honest, but honestly it’s hard to write now too. I don’t want to write posts about being homesick or being in a new city or spending a lot of time isolating myself when I’m not working. But thank you for this…I needed a reminder that it’s OK to write the negative too!
Write and write away right into my inbox …otherwise I am searching a new one out!!! I anticipate reading more and more!
Write on, Angie, because your words are always meaningful and make me think about things in new ways!
Who doesn’t deal with the idea of keeping it real from time to time, not just in the blog world, but in every day life? I have numerous thoughts that I would love to get out of my head and into my blog, but I worry about who will read it and what they’ll think. However, I want my blog to be a place for conversation. I want to be vulnerable and honest, however I also know it isn’t something that happens overnight. We’ll both keep working on it and we’ll enjoy the journey along the way, no matter what everyone else thinks!