The weight of indecision

(One person's scribble is another person's art. Here, we have a loose interpretation of the Mayflower.)

(One person's scribble is another person's art. Here, we have a loose interpretation of the Mayflower.)

Few things rattle me more than not being clear about something--not knowing what to do. I get all bossy with my spirit. "Tell me what to do!" Then I breathe and pray, "God please tell me what to do." 

Sometimes, the answer rises up. (I love when that happens.) From there, I am able to do brave things even when I'm scared. And sometimes, I hear noise: the voices of others mixed with my own questions and concerns. So I get quiet. And I hear... NOTHING.  

Then I do the logical thing. I grab a paper and pen and write down all the pros and cons. I ask questions and gather information. In all of this, I want to take the action that will bring me peace. I want the answer that feels like YES. 

That's it. I want Peace and Yes. And I want it to hurry up.  

While I roll around in the uncomfortable place of I don't know, I'll share some things. First, this quote from Emily Freeman that sounds a lot like me:

"It takes a long time for me to be honest. Not that I lie – I’m not a liar. I just have a delayed response to what is true. I can’t always tell in the moment how I feel about something.... I admire people with strong opinions. I might even be one of them if I had more time to think about it." Excerpt from the post, Three Ways to Be Brave When You Feel Like a Wimp

Saren and April from the Power of Moms have a great podcast about learning to live from your deeper yes. I just love that.  

My friend Dee is on a quest to rediscover clarity and simplicity in her own life. 

And this video: Hell Yeah, or No. A strong opinion, indeed. Do I agree? Maybe. I need more time to think about it.